#burnthepast… I burnt almost everything. I’m not even done yet… #byebyeexboyfriend #Ihateyou
Hey guys.. so I wanted to tell you the story of some of the things that happened between me and Caleb.
I’ll try my best to keep it short..
So Caleb and I went down the toilet because when I got back home from boot camp. I broke up with him.. I broke up with him because I had went through his phone and SAW that he was for the 4th time in our relationship that he was flirting with someone. I got fed up and did what I told him and myself what I was gonna do.
I broke up with him.
After, maybe a few days..or more. I don’t remember, I wanted him back. I really thought he’d say take me back because of how he felt about me. I was dead wrong. Although his reasons for not taking me back were valid, what he failed to tell me was that he had ALREADY replaced me..I didn’t find out until maybe two weeks later. I don’t really remember. I had to find out from everyone else BUT him. That’s what broke my heart other than the fact that I got replaced just like that. He wasn’t man enough to tell me that he found someone else.
So begins my long downward spiral of being miserable, depressed, (literally depressed, my prenatal doctor wanted me to take antidepressants while I was pregnant) sad every day, I cried constantly, mostly when I was alone in my room..
What I realized from the moment I was replaced that he wasn’t gonna be there for me during my pregnancy, the crucial time in my life where I needed him the most. He left me alone and despite family being around I felt very alone.
As my baby grew inside me, Caleb strung me along for a ride that would destroy me from the inside out. He’s lied to me, filled my heart and mind with empty words that were NEVER backed up by his actions. I would try to make him see how unhappy he made me. I would try to plead and beg him. He would say this and that. Say that he’d be with me. What he would say would be, “you need to change first” I would find that appalling because he hurt me, he put me through misery..why did I have to change first. It was all just excuses so he can keep dating his whore and see me on the side. In public (social media or otherwise) he was her boyfriend. Behind closed doors.. he was the empty shell that WAS my boyfriend. As much as I HATE the stupid bitch he strung her dumbass along for the ride too. He lied to her constantly, just like me..she couldn’t trust him either. Whenever we both came close to walking away from him, he’d beg us to stay. Tell us meaningless words that were NEVER gonna come true. At least for me anyway. He’d have us wrapped around his finger. Till this day, I still don’t believe he feels sorry for what he did. Even if he says it. After Seraphine was born, I had helped him work his way back into my house. I sadly lied to my parents and some others that we were back together. We weren’t. He’d keep telling to change. “Again, why did I have to change when you’re the one who put me through pain?” He’d say “see you’re stuck in the past” etc. When the fights between us would get bad. He would be very aggressive towards me. He’d scare me. He put his hands on my neck a few times, because I was gonna walk away (in a literal sense), he’d threaten to take my daughter from me. Ultimately he hit me in the face really hard, slapped me is more like it. I had to see my boss that day, so I went to work with dried up tears in my eyes. An invisible bruise on my face that only I knew was there because I felt it. I didn’t wanna touch my face for awhile. I broke down a little that very same day in my boss’s office because a resident had gotten injured and it was my fault so I had two things stressing me out. Whenever he felt bad for physically hurting me, he’d take one of my kitchen knives and threaten to cut or kill himself if I didn’t call the police. I didn’t want to because of the simple fact that I loved him enough not to want him to go jail. There would be times when he would try to give me the knife so I could do it. I didn’t wanna hurt him. There was one night where the flight between us got really bad. He went through my phone and for whatever reason..thought I was flirting with someone on my Facebook. I wasn’t..he really scared me that night. I was holding Seraphine, of course he would never hurt her but he got so mad that he slammed me down by the neck and pressed down hard while I was holding her.. she started crying. Right when she started crying… I wanted to hurt him right back.. I wanted to punch him in the face because he hurt me while she was in my arms. (This was the night before I went to my concert)
A few days after that, I found out about his whore’s pregnancy.. he pulled the same cycle with me all over again but this time…I realized that I didn’t wanna be with him. I didn’t wanna be with a guy who hits me and has another child. Especially with the very same cunt he replaced me with. I walked away for good….
Now, I am most likely about to go through a custody battle over my daughter. I hate him completely and want nothing to do with him. I wish he’d be that dad that didn’t want anything to do with his child. I’ll be very sad when my daughter one day finds out what kind of a shitty person he really is…
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